post 1: 02.09.25 15:35

 hey. how's it goin'? i don't know in particular what i want to say. atm, i think i'm just the front facing version of us. the one i call katie. i think i might be a bit gwyn right now. but let me explain.

psychology isn't a hard science. we humans don't really fully understand what our minds do. especially when affected by tradgedy and unresolved trauma.

our name is katie. i go by katie. parts of me go by nothing, but i call them things. i categorize them based off of Carl Jung's archectypes and the 4-quadrants of the mind. it helps me understand the reason they are here and maybe why i do .. or we do certain things.

i don't have DID (disassociative identity disorder). or at least not how they explain it usually. i don't lose time. but i may forget things that happened or that were said. each state of me sometimes has their own memories. sometimes i (katie, or the one that's usually front facing) will be able to access them. but sometimes not. but we all seem to be aware we are here and it isn't usually over-complicated.

recently we've been having a tough time. especially ramona. but that's another story. but for now i'll just say, i'm trying. just trying to get to the other side of this and build a life for us, or me, or whatever we end up being.

i have a boyfriend. and he's pretty great. at least when i'm not catastrophizing. we're (me) not always the best at seeing people's intentions. and we rely on others to give us queues. he isn't perfect. and obviously, neither am i/we. but, i'm going to try to be something different. we aren't trying to make things more difficult for anyone. just need to figure out how to zip us all back up together.

so, this is me, us, whatever... i'll explain it all later. but, hi. i'm katie, gwyn, eve and ramona. there's another one in here, but we don't call it anything. just complex. those are the united states of me, us, katie. the other's say i'm not katie either. i'm llew or i'm just another piece. and together we are katie. and i guess that makes sense. does it make any sense to you? eh. anyways. i'm going to try to do this regularly. but i'm a busy girl.

i have work now, and school is on break but will come back in sometime soon. i also have an internship, friends and a boyfriend. so i'll try my best. maybe i'll let one of the others type here too. i don't know how that will go. we will just have to see.